sOo... I'm pretty fed up with Life, and I have come to the conclusion that I don't really need sex when life fUCkS me whenever it wants. And there you have it. So, the next time somebody gives you a hard time "fuck'um." This brings up some bottled up emotions. I'm over this psychaotic feeling of love when it's betrayl, it's when the people we love know right from wrong and choose to do wrong. It's when the people we love don't take responsibility for their actions, and string along false hopes and crooked dreams. It's when you make one person your everything, until they're gone, then you have nothing. It's when the only option you have left is to be strong that makes a person so cold at times, times like these. It's when all you have left is yourself to rely on. It's that relentless feeling that drives a person to be ruthless. It's all the excuses and weak explanations that fuel anger in another. It's the fucked up tactics used to fix the solutions to convoluted problems. It's the way things turn out when everything happens for a reason. So drop what your doing and bob to this beat, if not for you then for me! Enjoy.

Never forget these words, words spoken by Eligh from the album Story of Two Worlds, "Sex, lies and friendships; the faultiest connection."

♥Amber Tha Gr8♥

The wind has invaded the day with harsh currents and foreign debris in the air.

The clouds remain still, grey and blue, being the shade factor for the sun taking a semi-day off. 

It's one of those placid days where a bad day can just be mended by a warm cup of tea.

So serene, I sit here breast feeding my son. But so serene I wish my thoughts were.

There is a mental tornado of vicious thoughts undermining my sanity.

I am my own worst enemy.

♥A Beautiful Mess, Amber

♥i grind my teeth at night

because of the tension i have with you.

♥i toss and turn and can't sleep right

because of all the wrong you've done.

♥my feelings swing up and down, side to side like a pedulum

because you've manage to string pieces of my heart, now you're playing tug of war.

♥i don't feel right

because you've left me hanging.

♥Formally Fucked♥

"Love is like a gun, it kills you"

♥Amber, The Hopeless Romantic♥

i honestly don't even want to be feeling like this, but love is a powerful feeling.

i know my dopamine levels crave that of the person i'm missing.

if he only knew that he would be better off with me.